Complicated is certainly the word I would use.

[ He doesn't seem bothered by it, though. ]

Though, I suppose the stereotypes of who is supposed to be attracted to whom never really mattered to me. I've never considered myself someone who actively seeks intimate relationships. It was such a foreign feeling when I found myself desiring intimacy with Penelope, despite her being my wife.

[ His brow creases as his eyes drift back down to their hands. ]

What I mean to say is, I don't believe you can actively decide who you begin to care for.