Grell would be able to watch my back and not get overly emotional if something did happen.

[ A concerned frown settles on his face as his brows furrow together. ]

If something did happen since we don't have a very accurate progression of symptoms I don't want Ronald to be out there with me and end up traumatized. And Eric - Maybe right now it will be okay while it's still just starting.

But as it gets worse -

[ He trailed off with a small shake of his head. ]

The less that they see and know of this the better for all of us. We don't need to be down more than just me if either of them find out they'll be at least a little emotionally compromised. There's no need for that now. I don't... I don't want the fuss. Not right now.

When - If it does have to come out, it would be best in a controlled environment after work hours. And on my own terms.

[ He's stubborn and even as he says this he knows it won't happen that way. He'll likely end up back in the infirmary or something and that is how it comes out. But for the moment he's pointedly ignoring that knowledge. ]